A missing jigsaw puzzle.
A loss that can never be redeemed.
A comfort, too late to appreciate.
Its just too late.

Learning to let go,
but the sudden loss
is just too shocking.
Its so surreal.
I still feel that you are still here with me.
All those times, lost.
I just wished I had known you better.

I want to talk to you.
You won't understand.
How can I understand if you don't give me something to understand, you say?
I don't know.
Cos I don't know where to start.
And I don't know how to pour all that bit of grievance and longing within me.
I'm just scared. And scarred.
I need time but I doubt time can wait for me.

amalina